New Goals?

Well, I've finally found a job. I'm a hostess, never thought that would happen. The crazy thing about it all is that I actually like it, a lot. I really like making people smile and making sure that they have a great dining experience. I've been thinking a lot about my life so far and what I want in life. And I think that I want to just have a bunch of different jobs and not a career. I'm happier this way. I haven't told him about it yet. I don't think that he will be too thrilled about it. But he does love making me happy so we shall see. Found out about this new artist. Give her a listen sometime.

Back to the Drawing Board

My time with him was interesting to say the least. I never know what he is thinking. I need something more from him I just don't know how to tell him what it is that I actually need. Hell, I barely even know. Three years...three years and there are still things that we are finding out about each other. But, there are still many times when I doubt the longevity of our relationship. Then something happens, a look, just one that's all it takes. And everytime...it takes my breath away. He takes my breath away. How can that be? When did this happen?

Here Goes Nothing

I am flying to see him right now. Its strange, we've known each other for so long but for whatever reason, I'm nervous. Anxious, I guess. You know that strange funny feeling you get in the pit of your stomach on the first day of school. The one where you are excited to see your friends and nervous to meet your new teacher but you are also strangely calm. Like you're trying to hide your feelings because you're afraid that if you let loose just a little who knows what will happen. I wonder if he feels this way when he is coming to see me. I'll tell you one thing, flying is a very beautiful thing. Everything about it is so unreal. You really begin to realize how big the world truly is. I would love to see what space is like. I think we might be landing soon. They just turned on the seat belt light. Its funny, every time that light goes on  I always picture people frantically putting on their seat belts like they will be severely punished if they don't do so in a timely manner. We are getting closer to the ground now. I still can't see the people below but we are no longer above the clouds. I think we are flying over the Potomac right now. We'll be landing shortly and he will be waiting. Here goes nothing.